Lying in that hospital
I thought they'd see the girl I was
Crept right in through my mouth
Heard them whistle in my ribs
Tried to bring me back to life
I didn't know I'd died
Think they just saw a little girl
If they saw me at all
Please stop making me better
Stop making me better
Stop making me well
I don't need your sympathy
Or your little blue pills as well
I don't need that kind of help
Jacked up on bright ideas
Blind until I crashed
I swore I'd never tell anyone
There's no one I could trust with this
Please stop making me better
Stop making me better
Stop making me well
Is it true that you only hurt yourself?
Even when the beetles were eating off my face
I knew it was just the drugs they made me take
Please stop making me better
Stop making me better
Stop making me well
Quotes
"Can't Be, Won't Be was a long time coming. I had an illness as a child, from when I was about 9 til 16 or so, and no one knew how to fix it. I was put on a lot of different drugs as the doctors tried out their bright ideas on me, and a lot of other kids with the same condition. There was a cupboard in our kitchen at home where the top was a bit of a pharmacy. One "cocktail", as they called it, I was on for a long time had some really unpleasant side effects, one of which was a recurring nightmare about having my face eaten off by beetles. Another girl I met from the same trial was having the same dreams, but with birds instead. I took myself off them when Leah Betts died - I realise now that those weren't the drugs the campaign was aimed at, but I was 11 and confused. Unfortuantely, those particular pills were addictive, and I went through withdrawal. I'd avoided all drugs since, right up to aspirin. There's a whole other set of unpleasant experiences I got from that period, and because my memories are pretty fuzzy, it seems like they all happened at once. In my head, I'm being mistreated by hospital staff, losing the ability to breathe, going through withdrawal and being pulled apart in my sleep. This song was me letting some of that go."
