Stats:

Track number: 10
Length: 3:15
No. of instruments: 1
Symbol: Arrow
Slogan: "These thoughts do you harm"

Instruments

Harmoniser

Lyrics

There's no use in crying your heart out
Cos you still need the damn thing to beat
And I heard your solution was foolproof
It's too bad that the rope didn't reach

There's no use in crying your heart out
So you'd better get off of your knees
It's hard to find out you're not special
Like your mother promised you'd be

I'm trying hard to be honest here
Please don't confuse this with self-pity
Cos I've had eight kinds of guilt
And a sideplate of fries
I know I shouldn't eat

And I've been here on this battlefield
Between my body and me
For over a decade and I'd like to see an end to it
But it looks like I'm stuck with me

So there's no use in crying my heart out
Cos I still need the damn thing to beat
And I heard your solution was foolproof
But, sadly, it's not for me.

Quotes

"Catechisms was written in the same amount of time it takes to play it (plus one verse, because it used to be longer). Two or three times a year, there's an electrical storm in my brain and I forget what the point of existing is, I stop believing anything is worthwhile, and I've seriously considered leaving the planet a couple of times. I think I've always had these episodes, but it got worse after I went to uni. Maybe it was my age, maybe it was the isolation and stress of being outside that comfy ever-ready family backup. There was one day in my final year where I picked out my outfit based on what I wanted to be found in. The next thing I knew, it was a good while later and I was in B&Q. I'm not really sure how or why I got there. I was working three jobs at the time and one of them had a big event I was supposed to be helping to host that evening, so I decided to put everything on hold and go, help out, and then deal with this living issue when I got back. That night, someone I barely knew picked a fight with me and I fought back with complete honesty in a way I wouldn't have usually, because I had nothing to lose. It saved my life. After that, I knew I had a problem, that i needed to get myself through these 24 hours where life isn't worth living. So now I play the piano non-stop until it goes away. Catechisms was one of those nights. I played it over and over that night with this mantra: you need to keep going, it needs to keep beating. It took a long time to get an orchestration which was honest, and that ability to be thin or all encompassing, embracing the gutteral and the pure, of a choir is what I needed."